State of Mind

In the past few weeks, things have been going for the best and not so run down. Yea, I'm over what ever was hanging over my head.

I've been keeping myself busy with multiple things and keeping an eye on a certain person lately. Yes, there's another guy I got a crush on. Is that bad? No, didn't think so and besides he's very sweet and has a heart of gold and very honest. I think he's uber cute and his mannerism is cute as well.

Job search is being a bitch to me and I'm about to lose it. Every job I apply for turns me down and my pocket book is hurting. So I've been considering going back to school and maybe get something going with my drawing skills. Been putting that on the back burner for a few years now. Either I go back to school or I find a decent job that'd pay good.

Cookie Crumbs

The past few days have been better for me. I've been keeping myself busy and my mind was else where. I went to see Mr. & Mrs. Smith (Brad Pitt & Angelina Jolie), and I must say that was the best movie I've seen from those two. When I was watching that, it brought back some memories in the past but I won't go into detail with that.

You were probably wondering what happened to little Zoe, eh? I would be surprised if you were worried about me, but I can take comfort as well. I guess in the game of life, you'll always have your winners and your losers; it's a given. Don't you just love how a plan just falls apart right at your lap and then get laughed in your face, because you weren't able to pull all the loose ends together? Many of times I've had high hopes and dreams for myself but I don't think it'll happen, but I'll keep trying. I have a bad habit of trying to grip onto things I don't want to lose. But I guess some things are meant to be let go and let be just because it won't say for you, but it'll give you signals that has to be noticed. I see the signals but I tend to ignore them because I'm thinking they're false alarms, but I think this time would be a good time to let it go.

We're born, we live, sometimes get sick, get old, then we die. It all depends on how you live out your life and how you want to be remembered by. With grandchildren to pass down the heretidge, or making pieces of artwork to make your name known, everyone has their ways and they're not to be judged how it's done. Right now I'm trying to figure what to do to make myself remembered, and I'm having a bit of a trouble. I'm sure it'll come to mind soon. heh.